Soccer is good for me. It leaves me exhausted. Too exhausted to think and worry or feel sad. After dinner last night, i fall asleep in a flash in front of the TV as Man Utd crash 3-1 to Man City. I woke up this morning, two hours ago and the sky is so blue and it will probably be a beautiful day but I don't feel keen to do anything at all. There's church, but I figure I don't want to go there anymore. It's just this place with people or should I call them friends? who talk about nothing but God; Jesus, trust everything in Him. They are good people, no doubt but it gets a bit boring. Would they be able to be as pious and God-loving had they not been born into such privileged lives? The fact is, Singapore is an oasis in a world which is very much screwed up. Trust everything in Him? Take a good look at the world today. What was God doing when the tsunami struck? Where is the God in the starving children in Africa. Stop playing chess with the Angels! I am not blaming God or pointing fingers or anything, it's just that I think the church has implanted a skewed image of the world in the minds of some people. Worship him? Isn't it all selfishness? So we will be blessed? I know I pray for things to happen. I am selfish. Human.