3am. Sleepless. I flip here and around. My mind is at its most lucid. I see the problem. I want to be good. Not to say that I have been evil or anything, but I know I can do better. I put things in perspective, examine my feelings, my past actions, I see things in another light, I sieve out the mistakes. But I will never know for sure if they were mistakes. Some thoughts are painful and I try to will myself to fall asleep, but it doesn't happened. They want to be resolved.

Driving home today, I passed by Portsdown Camp to get to the PIE. Was amazed to see rows and rows of brand new BMW marques inside an army camp.Then I remembered that Singapore is playng host to the IMF/World Bank summit. The cars,all fitted with bulletproof windows, will be used to ferry the delegates around. Quite a sight.