We left Liling's place at 6am this morning. I had my share of fun, played a little mahjong, and then Dota on Battlenet, which I think I totally suck at, going by the numerous requests from the people on my team for me to leave. "Please quit, Sniper." I guess most of all, there was some relief from the strange, uncommon loneliness that has descended upon me. When did it start and why did it start, I can't be sure but I have a clue. I guess with the people I don't know well, I can afford to be someone else, to be less serious. I was at my most whimsical, switching between totally irrelevant and unrelated topics. And they say I am just like a small kid, but I wish I truly was one, then perhaps I wouldn't be smiling outside and snowing inside.