Promises.

For once, I wake earlier than the cat.
I start sobbing and it wakes my parents up.
I apologize to my mum and my dad. They liked her a lot.
For once, we have a conversation where I didn't feel like I was being pushed
Maybe because everything is now cut and dried.
There are many things I wish I could have done differently.
But then there are also things that would not have happened if I had done things differently.




I realize too late.
And all the $500 wins in the world feel hollow.