31st

缘难了情难了。

We have been apart for 9 months now, but the heart is a strange thing. I find myself missing you more than ever,  the little things the most.  I have spent the last few months thinking about all the things I should have thought about when we were together. I think I know myself better now.  I am ready now, to get married, and spend the rest of my life with you, but you are no longer here. Why couldn't you, your mother have given me the time to come to my own conclusion? Perhaps it was inevitable then. I wish I hadn't run but what is the point of crying over spilt milk.

And on the last day of 2012, I feel as lost as I have ever felt in my life. But I also know that I will keep on living as best as I can.