Shit happened. I thought I could handle it. Sunny disposition, Mr Brightside and all. It's all a mess now. People tell me she's nothing special. Lots of girls out there. She is special, to me. I absolutely adore her. I can truly be myself when I am with her. I want to improve, to be a better person,for her.I dunno what I am doing anymore. I walked about in a daze today. Got hit by a van crossing the road. I left my handphone at the YIH canteen, went to the library, went around searching for it, and missed soccer training. People find it hard to believe that I can be so sad, and so I smile to them and try to be normal, mr brightside, where's the fucking bright side? I am grateful people care, but do they understand? I am losing touch with my childhood friends. Grown apart. Yasa came back from Australia today. And where did they go? To the Nightclub, for the girls.
I just want to get drunk and wasted. Then maybe the pain will go away.