"Milk chocolate peppermint reminds me of you, Josephine." Regret-laced sentiment, they could be part of the lyrics to some song . There was a chocolate sale in school today. For $11 I got myself 3 large slabs of Cadbury's Dairy milk chocolate peppermint, the same one we went crazy over in Australia, the same one which kept our spirits up on all the long drives. 3 large slabs to last awhile; to reminisce on.

This job makes me want to be good, good as in, I'm not sure if I can describe it properly. The kind of good I used to think, and maybe I still do, was naive, the kind of good where if you saw a drink can on the ground you'd pick it up and carry it with you as you look for a dustbin to dispose of it properly. The kind of good which makes you appear 'soft' - you know what they say about nice guys finishing last.

 I went along with the cross country team for their training at Bukit Timah Hill today, after school. There's just something about being responsible for the well-being and behavior of 39 girls, I don't know how to put it. I guess I had to be good, role model and all and I realise I liked being good. We ran up the steepest slope I have ever seen, at the beginning of the trail, all the way up to the summit, twice. On the 2nd attempt quite a few of the girls were lagging behind, the slope was a killer with all the lactic acid building up, some of the girls could not take it and had to stop. One particular girl, a tiny girl named Megan was left behind, she was breathing heavily and looked as if she was going to faint. I was the rear runner, so naturally it fell upon to me to look after her.

I told her to stop for a rest. And when she had calmed down, I could have just asked her to go back down like the 2 other girls, but she had already cleared the hardest, steepest part and I knew the rest of the route up to the summit was all about mental strength, so I was determined for her to complete the route. I stayed with her, encouraging her. We would start running for snatches before stopping for short breaks when her breathing got too heavy. It took awhile but we finally ran up to the summit, where the rest of the team was waiting and they were clapping and cheering her on and it felt really satisfying.