It's only Life. But it's our only Life.

The last year and a half have indeed been tumultuous. I feel like my heart has been torn out, put back then torn out over and over again. I used to be confident, sure in my actions, my decisions. I believed in following my heart, I believed in dreams. I believed. Now I don't know what to believe and I question my own decision making process, I question myself all the time. Were they mistakes? Are they regrets? Was it inevitable? I can't even be sure anymore. Some days I beat myself up, over and over again. Certain scenes keep replaying in my head, over and over again. But it's only Life. Our only Life. And so I struggle and struggle to reinvent myself to regain myself, to become a better person.