Someone asked me if I could send him this song. I got out the CD and started listening, and I realise the song is a parallel to how I am feeling.
u2 - With or Without You

See the storm set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I will wait for you

Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you

With or without you
With or without you......


Nothing to win and nothing left to lose.