Disenchanted.

So we left our mark on the tiles at the lobby of the old hotel which will soon be gone, to make way for multi-million dollar developments and as I dropped her off at Fort Canning, it seemed the sunshine had only been temporary as I rode into the drenching rain at Kallang, premonition of what was to come, back home to the bad news. Even if it was expected, it's just way too fast and it struck me like a bullet, not fatally through the heart because I have had time to brace myself but through the shoulder because I could not duck out of the way in time. 

It's just way too fast and I wonder whether perhaps my cousin  Xinlei is right, She is an in-and-out girl. And through the spectrum of emotions, I just can't shrug it off that I threw it all away. It's just too fast, but I can only blame myself.