Handed in my resignation letter today. I will see my classes out till the end of the year. Exciting times. Beating heart. The truth is, I'd feel a lot more reassured if you were still with me. But I know I probably wouldn't have dared to do it if we had gotten married. Bryan said something about sacrifice today, when you give up something you love. I wonder if that was it.
if the sky falls on my head while i am chasing butterflies, so be it
every moment, every turning point, every romantic encounter in life, has been marked with a distinct song. our frailties, dreamy encounters and setbacks are always reflected with a soundtrack- a tune which brings us back, a button that allows us to freeze time and playback all those precious moments, good or bad.
Monday, April 29, 2013
Saturday, April 27, 2013
Straw that broke the camel's back.
I have my resignation letter typed out and waiting to be printed on Monday. If not now when? Maybe I will fail as a full time photographer. But at least I will have tried.
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Obsession
Every time I return the story changes, because every time I return, the feeling changes.( This time, more eerie. I remember what Mr Manaran said - "They have moved into the upper floors.")
May 6th is the deadline for my story. I don't think that is enough time to complete the story or if I put it out, it won't feel complete. I have probably spent more time than they are paying me.
I feel this need to keep going back, call it curiosity, passion, or even obsession, perhaps it's the story calling out to me, but I know I have to keep going back until I find it, until I feel like it is complete.
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
Drove past Regentville today on the way to school after Teachers' Estate to get the last photos for the assignment. Overload of feelings. I can still feel you. But I can't continue to kid myself. I am really all lost at sea.
Sunday, April 21, 2013
Saturday, April 20, 2013
Friday, April 19, 2013
快阻止 時間倒轉 當我們 再次遇見
怎樣的表情 最適合隱瞞 我依然 愛你很深
別再多看我一眼 別試探我 真的感覺
我怕 忍不住 又回頭眷戀 你連背影都溫柔
不愛 就轉身離開 一個人 把回憶推翻
不愛 否定了未來 你恨我 別心軟 我也不為難
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
Friday, April 12, 2013
Hanson 2013
http://www.thehollywoodgossip.com/videos/hanson-mmmbop-2012/
Should have heeded the lyrics of this song.
Tuesday, April 09, 2013
Sunday, April 07, 2013
Lapse
Met Nerine for drinks this evening at Blujazz. She showed me photos of you on facebook at a wedding. You were smiling happily and it made me glad. At the same time it made me really sad because I remember when I used to make you this happy.
Friday, April 05, 2013
Forget the ghosts that make you old before your time/ it's too easy to get left behind
Forget the ghosts that make you old before your time/ it's too easy to get left behind.... sings Keane.
Easier said than done, as I drive back home along Newton Road at night after dropping Wei Leng off. The heartache intensifies as I stop at the junction at Novena, in front of Velocity, remembering Yami Yoghurt and Donut Factory. I never visit those places now.
You think you’ve done your journey
Then you stumble and burn but there’s such a long way to go.