I think I still haven't forgiven myself. I cannot. remember the events and I remember you crying, and I imagine how you must have cried for so many days and I hate and I hate and I wish I could somehow go back to redeem myself and I feel the pain in my foot and I feel I deserve this and more.
if the sky falls on my head while i am chasing butterflies, so be it
every moment, every turning point, every romantic encounter in life, has been marked with a distinct song. our frailties, dreamy encounters and setbacks are always reflected with a soundtrack- a tune which brings us back, a button that allows us to freeze time and playback all those precious moments, good or bad.
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Sunday, February 24, 2013
给你的简讯和留言 说不清万分之一追悔
给你的简讯和留言 说不清万分之一追悔
Remember how I always tried to explain/translate their songs to you? Their songs move me so and I wanted you to be similarly moved. I miss those times.
Saturday, February 23, 2013
It really can't get any worse. Broken foot to go with a broken heart. I really hope it ain't permanent. Sometimes I vainly think that I have gone through enough trials and tribulations in the last 2 years to last my whole life.
Friday, February 22, 2013
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Today my memory takes me back to September and that lost trip to Japan and the ache, it's enough to bring tears to my eyes. And it's not like I haven't tried to put the past behind.
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Thursday, February 14, 2013
Forget me not, but I am slowly forgetting us, forgetting you.
Clementine: This is it, Joel.
It's going to be gone soon.
Joel: I know.
Clementine: What do we do?
Joel: Enjoy it.
Last night, I was reminded of why I ran in 2011. This should have been between the two of us. It should have been, in 2011. I just made the mistake of letting my resentment with your mum lead me into thinking our values differed. Or perhaps they do differ, seeing how you are content to let her run your life. But I think the love was always there. It may have fluctuated but I never stopped loving you.
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
I received a pleasant surprise this morning. After yesterday's deadline for this year's Clang Mentorship passed with no email I had thought it was not to be. But this morning I got an email from Elin, Clang's wife to inform me that their flight to New York had been delayed and I was one of the 4 John has decided to mentor this year. Silver lining after a Monday in the doldrums. The images I submitted for consideration this year, I had focused less on aesthetic and more on honesty. Perhaps that worked or perhaps meeting him last week and having supper with him may have clinched it. All I know is I have been given a fantastic opportunity to learn from one of the best Singaporean photographic minds and I should be grateful.
Monday, February 11, 2013
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Friday, February 08, 2013
Wednesday, February 06, 2013
Saturday, February 02, 2013
Holiday Journal while you were asleep.
Las Vegas Evening, June 2010.
We had a big fight this evening. Jaime wanted to have dinner at a rather famous Italian Family Diner. We were running late because we were supposed to catch Chriss Angel's Cirque du Soleil show. The GPs got us lost and I was getting flustered. I didn't mean to shout at you. I didn't mean to shout at her. I asked her to take a look at the map and see if she could figure out where we were, but she refused to. She said she didn't how to read the map. I guess for me, I lost my temper and raised my voice because she wouldn't even try. I wanted her to at least try. I am sorry. I promise I will try to be less combustible. I will try to be less combustible. The pasta in pesto afterwards could have been the best pasta in the world but it tasted stale. I am sorry I spoilt the evening and dinner.
Friday, February 01, 2013
I quote from Joe Ng's facebook status, wonderfully written :
To me it's always been about roots. A home where there's a sparkly magical connection to growing up, of belonging, of grunty nosed friendships with that tree. Yes! Trees r special! (where we hid in the branches woohoo hide n seek), that uncle shop (where we flip thru Roy of the rovers and dark knights), that stray cat (when at 9, I named him Harry n a year later he died n I cried), flinging waterbombs at ah guan and ah peng (and at dusk all our parents scream at us to come home with canes by their side).
Then we grew up... My beloved Tiong Bahru United became Tanjong Pagar United. Anson SMC BE was held at my Gan Eng Seng. The former disappeared, was whatever gerrymandered, and the other got tossed around here there n oh heck, any lower delta where.
And sadly I grew less younger. But that's ok. It's progress for nation building (sic) knowing that their love will tear us apart.
And I moved to lovely Pekkio all the while still pining for my tiong bahru. But the mkt veg stall fella, the regular joggers whom we exchange salute a hard sweat by a nod, n the Pacific Laundry shop couple that we counted the number of "pondings", really made my day. All this really make this home to me.
We could always end up rootless, moving from here to anywhere in this manufactured pte ltd that have the only constant- nasi lemak,bcm, chapati, dinosaur milo history. flour,fibre, protein and spam can, it won't fulfill the soul. All these is just simply living life but smelling, touching n loving the ones that matter. And holding on to what are bigger than memories damn hell work for me.
The hell with em. We make our own magic. This is our home.
And this is why we must vote right in 2016, to preserve the Singapore we know, the Singapore we love , our home.